Homesick

Well, I'm back in Aus. I have already spent a day here but I'm still not used to it. From the moment I stepped out of the airport, it felt like I was going on a holiday. What does that mean... it means that my home is in Singapore. I didn't know why I felt like this, but I just shrugged it off. The taxi drove us back home and it was a very quiet drive. I guess everyone was tired and missing home. Most of the time I looked outside. Everything looked and sounded different. At that moment, I felt an emotion I never really felt before - homesickness. I looked around the taxi and saw the three of us and I felt so lonely. As the taxi was big (like a mini-van), I could see how small our family is. "So, this is how this year's going to be again..." I tried to be optimistic, but it was hard to. Back at home, I lived with at least 7 more people. It may have been crammed but I felt more at home. Whenever at night, everyone came back from work and we would gather together to watch some tv. I missed that...

When we reached home, it felt like I was going in a hotel. Why was that again? But now entering the second day here, I have accepted the fact that this is my new home. Another question would be why didn't I feel this before? That I still can't explain. But now that the house look pretty messy after unpacking, I feel more at home... (I'm not saying that mama's house is messy. It's just that...you know what I mean)